Anniversary gifts

This is a list of traditional wedding anniversary gifts just so you know

First: Paper
Second: Cotton
Third: Leather
Fourth: Fruit or Flowers
Fifth: Wood
Sixth: Candy or Iron
Seventh: Wool or Copper
Eight: Bronze or Pottery
Ninth: Pottery
Tenth: Tin
Eleventh: Steel
Twelfth: Silk or Linen
Thirteenth: Lace
Fourteenth: Ivory
Fifteenth: Crystal
Twentieth: China
Twenty-Fifth: Silver
Thirtieth: Pearls
Thirty-Fifth: Coral
Fortieth: Ruby
Forty-Fifth: Sapphire
Fiftieth: Gold
Fifty-Fifth: Emerald
Sixtieth: Diamond

Please close your mouth

We went out to eat tonight at my favorite place Cheddars. We were seated in a booth which I must say is my preference when I am not pregnant. Any way there was a group of teenagers in the booth behind Jon, the girl facing me was one of the worst eater I have seen. She shelved her food in and ate with her mouth wide open. She inhaled her food in what seemed like five seconds. It was bad. I sat there thinking to my self "I will do everything in my power to teach my children how to eat properly". Please not put your elbows on the table.

Monday

Monday's always seem inspire me or depress me. Today I feel inspired to get things done. I mowed the yard and made cookies. I cleaned house and did the laundry. Both the girls have been good and I feel like it has been a good day. I love days like this. I feel like the happily ever after is real. I have had days that have not been very pleasant but today I cant remember them. Its a good day.

I woke up this morning

I woke up to a dirty house again. It is a never ending struggle to keep things clean and organized. I feel sometimes that it is a struggle not worth attempting, its just going to get dirty again.
Things I need to do: Clean the dead bugs out of the windows, dust everything, vacuum everywhere, clean the bathrooms, laundry a mountain I don't like to climb, and kitchen I don't know where to begin. With all the appointments I cant seem to get in a routine. I'm going to try and get caught up today, my mom is going to take the girls and I will be home alone all afternoon. I hope I get alot done.

Once upon my day

I tend to get very frustrated when my two year old does not listen to me. Sometimes I feel like I am talking to a cold brick wall. Absolutely no response, no feeling, nothing. I try not to lose my cool but I am sorry to say I lose it more than I like. I sometimes remember my memory verse I am working on for those occasions. But what is really convicting is remembering that she is not mine I gave her to God. I am just His servant caring out His wishes and commands. I should listen to what He wants me to do. That is my goal as a parent. Yes it is very lofty but I have to strive to reach closer to it. I wont get there here on earth but I long to please Him.

God is amazing

Have you see the beautiful baby smiles? They have a way of warming my heart. I cry and laugh all at the same time. God must give babies sweet dreams. I often wonder what they are dreaming, angels, heaven I don't know but I am jealous.
Just sitting here I am trying to imagine what it will be like and I have no idea. I am longing for the day that we can go there. No tears, no worries, no imperfect relationships.
O too be there.

Some people

Do you have someone in your life that every time you see them they annoy you? I do. I hate it I don't like it that this person bothers me. I feel like this person thinks that it is their job to make all the decisions in my life, and if that's not bad enough they think every decision I make is wrong. Everything I do is wrong. It is exhausting. I get really uncomfortable around them know. This results in me saying more than I should. I tend to talk when I get nervous. It gets me in lots of trouble. I wish I had the guts to say "Stay out of my business if your worried about me please just pray for me". If I said this I would feel really bad. I cant decide which would is worse. What do you think? Anyway it happened again tonight. Its hard to be confident in parenting when someone is always telling you that your doing it wrong. sigh sigh Why do I care what they think? It is sad but I do. I want so desperately want to please them but I feel like I cant no matter how hard I try. tears

the first of many

Life ... Well I stumble along trying to keep up. Some days I keep up better than others, today I am lagging behind a little. My thoughts are racing trying to comprehend what is happening.
Let me start from the beginning, I am married to the greatest guy and I have two beautiful daughters Zoey and Noelle. Our newest addition Noelle is three months old, she has symptoms of some disorders autism or retardation (I hate that word) the doctors and therapist want to do genetic tests to confirm their assumptions. This all scares me. I have a beautiful baby that is so precious how could something like this happen. I know in my heart that God is in control and I do very much believe that He has a wonderful plan for our lives, I am just having some trouble convincing my head.