I have been having a hard few weeks. I have been extremely emotional. Every little thing has made me cry, I have felt like a failure as a mom and wife. I have felt overwhelmed by every aspect of my life from laundry, to Zoey, to keeping up with the house work. I have felt like I need a break from everything. This feeling of wanted to get away has not helped I feel like I should want to be with my kids but the truth is I have really been longing to get away.
Jon told me this week that we are going to go to St. Louis for a few days in October. I hesitantly asked if we were going to take the kids and he said well we don't have to. I am so excited and scared to I have never left the girls with anyone except for max four hours. It is a work trip for Jon so he keeps reminding me that he will have to spend some time with the client he is going to see. But still it will be fun.
One other thing is that this trip falls on the week of our four year anniversary.